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Aug 10 · 12:04 pmMusic
Original recording3:23

仮面の下 -Unmasked-

仮面の下 -Unmasked-

Experimenting with an epic orchestral-trap · ~100 bpm · Japanese/English track inspired from SawanoHiroyuki[nZk] and Aimer's bL∞dy f8 -eUC- track. 仮面の下 -Unmasked- is a psychological duel disguised as a love song — the narrator has spent too long trusting a guide who wore kindness like a mask, feeding them lies in a gentle voice. As the deception becomes undeniable, fear turns inward: what if staying silent makes me just as hollow as you? The track builds from hushed, breathy verses through swelling pre-choruses into full-scale orchestral-trap choruses, hitting a stripped-bare bridge before erupting into a final chorus where the narrator rips off not just the manipulator's mask, but their own denial — emerging changed, resolved, unmasked. Built for widescreen, high-stakes moments — a mentor-betrayal or rival-confrontation beat tailor-made for the isekai universe. (kbd music)

Lyrics — Japanese

[Intro] (instrumental) [Verse 1] 仮面の裏側で 微笑む影 Kamen no urigawa de hohoemu kage 優しい声のまま 嘘を並べた Yasashii koe no mama uso wo narabeta 信じていた手のひら 冷たくなる Shinjiteita tenohira tsumetaku naru 気づかぬふりをして 目を逸らした Kizukanu furi wo shite me wo sorashita [Pre-Chorus 1] 心の奥底で 何かが軋む Kokoro no okusoko de nanika ga kishimu このままじゃ私も 同じになる Kono mama ja watashi mo onaji ni naru [Chorus 1] 隠していた真実が 溢れ出す Kakushiteita shinjitsu ga afuredasu I see you now — unmasked 壊れていく世界の真ん中で Kowareteiku sekai no mannaka de I won't become what you are 偽りの声が 消えていく Itsuwari no koe ga kieteiku 光が刺す、その瞬間に Hikari ga sasu, sono shunkan ni [Verse 2] 何度も差し出した 震える手 Nando mo sashidashita furueru te その度笑いながら 切り裂かれた Sono tabi warainagara kirisakareta もう戻れないと わかっていた Mou modorenai to wakatteita それでも縋ってた 弱さのまま Soredemo sugatteta yowasa no mama [Pre-Chorus 2] 心の奥底で 何かが軋む Kokoro no okusoko de nanika ga kishimu このままじゃ私も 同じになる Kono mama ja watashi mo onaji ni naru [Chorus 2] 隠していた真実が 溢れ出す Kakushiteita shinjitsu ga afuredasu I see you now — unmasked 壊れていく世界の真ん中で Kowareteiku sekai no mannaka de I won't become what you are 偽りの声が 消えていく Itsuwari no koe ga kieteiku 光が刺す、その瞬間に Hikari ga sasu, sono shunkan ni [Bridge] 仮面を外して 私を見て Kamen wo hazushite watashi wo mite これが最後の 私の声 Kore ga saigo no watashi no koe もう迷わない Mou mayowanai [Final Chorus] 仮面の下で 生まれ変わる Kamen no shita de umarekawaru This is who I am — unmasked 壊れていく世界の真ん中で Kowareteiku sekai no mannaka de I won't become what you are 真実だけが 光になる Shinjitsu dake ga hikari ni naru 今、目を覚ます Ima, me wo samasu [Outro / Reprise] (vocal ad-lib, wordless, fading)

English translation

[Intro] (instrumental) [Verse 1] A smiling shadow behind the mask Lined up lies in that same gentle voice The hand I trusted turns cold I pretended not to notice, looked away [Pre-Chorus 1] Something creaks deep inside my heart If this goes on, I'll become the same as you [Chorus 1] The truth I hid comes spilling out I see you now — unmasked In the middle of a world falling apart I won't become what you are The false voice fades away The moment the light breaks through [Verse 2] I held out my trembling hand, again and again And each time, you laughed as you tore it apart I knew I could never go back Still I clung to you, still weak [Pre-Chorus 2] Something creaks deep inside my heart If this goes on, I'll become the same as you [Chorus 2] The truth I hid comes spilling out I see you now — unmasked In the middle of a world falling apart I won't become what you are The false voice fades away The moment the light breaks through [Bridge] Take off the mask and look at me This is the last time I'll use this voice I won't hesitate anymore [Final Chorus] Beneath the mask, I am reborn This is who I am — unmasked In the middle of a world falling apart I won't become what you are Only the truth becomes the light Now, I open my eyes [Outro / Reprise] (vocal ad-lib, wordless, fading)

Aug 7 · 11:51 amMusic
Original recording4:51

Undertow

Undertow

"Undertow" — a dark, dreamy pop-rock/EDM track set in a steampunk-tinged undercity. Inspired by Bea Miller's Playground from Arcane - A breathy, sultry female voice offers comfort and safety while something quietly unsettling hums beneath every line — the listener senses it, but leans in anyway. Downtempo, atmospheric verses build into anthemic, chant-heavy choruses before dissolving into an ambient decay outro. (kbd music)

Lyrics — English

[Verse 1] Come a little closer, don't be scared The lights down here are softer than up there Everyone who's lost still finds a chair I'll hum you something sweet, and you won't care Doesn't it feel calm here, calmer than it should? Funny how the quiet's not as quiet as it looks Just breathe it in, I promise that it's good [Chorus] Let the undertow take you under slow Nothing's wrong here, baby, don't you know I'm the hand that's holding you so gentle, so gentle You can trust the current, let it go Sink a little deeper than you should It's fine, it's fine, it's fine, it's understood Just stay with me, stay with me a little longer, longer [Post-Chorus hook] Under, under, undertow Under, under, you won't know Under, under, undertow (Stay with me, stay with me) [Verse 2] You keep looking over both your shoulders Like the walls in here are watching, getting colder Nothing's changed, love, nothing's out of order Just the pipes, the wind, the water Isn't it strange how a smile can hold a lie So still you almost miss it passing by Don't ask me why — just close your eyes [Chorus] Let the undertow take you under slow Nothing's wrong here, baby, don't you know I'm the hand that's holding you so gentle, so gentle You can trust the current, let it go Sink a little deeper than you should It's fine, it's fine, it's fine, it's understood Just stay with me, stay with me a little longer, longer [Post-Chorus hook] Under, under, undertow Under, under, you won't know Under, under, undertow (Stay with me, stay with me) [Bridge] Shh... it's alright It's alright (You feel it too, don't you) It's alright... The lights are just... flickering That's all That's all it is [Final Chorus] Let the undertow take you under slow Nothing's wrong here, baby, don't you know I'm the hand that's holding you so gentle, so gentle You can trust the current, let it go Sink a little deeper than you should It's fine, it's fine, it's fine, it's understood Just stay with me, stay with me a little longer, longer [Outro] Under... under... Stay with me... (...undertow)

Aug 7 · 10:36 amMusic
Original recording3:07

REVOLT

REVOLT

Was doing further experimenting with cinematic punch and expressive Jrock music - taking inspiration from Vickablanka’s Blackrover sound track. Revolt is driving a 175bpm J-rock anime opening about reinventing yourself in complete anonymity — no audience, no recognition, just the decision to rise anyway. The title lands once per chorus as a declaration rather than a chant, and the final chorus shifts from present-tense struggle to past-tense arrival: by the time the world notices, there's no looking back. (kbd music)

Lyrics — Japanese

[Verse 1] 
誰も知らない場所で — Dare mo shiranai basho de
 息を殺して歩く — Iki wo koroshite aruku 
名前のない今日が — Namae no nai kyou ga
 また静かに過ぎてく — Mata shizuka ni sugiteku [Pre-Chorus]
 何度倒れても — Nando taoretemo
 誰も見てなくても — Daremo mitenakutemo
 Get up, get up, one more time [Chorus]
 世界がまだ気づかなくても — Sekai ga mada kizukanakutemo
 静かな怒りで立ち上がる — Shizuka na ikari de tachiagaru
 Don't wait, don't stay, I won't explain 
I'm building me from the flame
 This is my REVOLT
 誰でもない今日から — Dare demo nai kyou kara [Verse 2]
 壊れかけの自分を — Kowarekake no jibun wo
 一から作り直す — Ichi kara tsukurinaosu
 拍手もない舞台で — Hakushu mo nai butai de 
それでも踊り続ける — Soredemo odori tsuzukeru [Pre-Chorus]
 何度倒れても — Nando taoretemo
 誰も見てなくても — Daremo mitenakutemo
 Get up, get up, one more time [Chorus]
 世界がまだ気づかなくても — Sekai ga mada kizukanakutemo
 静かな怒りで立ち上がる — Shizuka na ikari de tachiagaru
 Don't wait, don't stay, I won't explain
 I'm building me from the flame
 This is my REVOLT
 誰でもない今日から — Dare demo nai kyou kara [Bridge] 
見えなくてもいい — Mienakutemo ii 
知られなくてもいい — Shirarenakutemo ii
 I'm not asking, I'm not waiting
 This is mine to take [Final Chorus]
 世界が気づいた頃には — Sekai ga kizuita koro ni wa
 もう後ろは振り返らない — Mou ushiro wa furikaeranai 
Don't wait, don't stay, I won't explain
 I already lit the flame
 This is my REVOLT
 誰でもなかった今日から — Dare demo nakatta kyou kara

English translation

Verse 1: 
In a place no one knows
I walk while holding my breath
 A nameless today
 quietly passes by again Pre-Chorus:
 No matter how many times I fall
 even if no one's watching
 Get up, get up, one more time Chorus: 
Even if the world still hasn't noticed
 I rise with a quiet fury
 Don't wait, don't stay, I won't explain
 I'm building me from the flame 
This is my REVOLT
 Starting today, as no one in particular Verse 2:
 This half-broken self of mine 
I'm rebuilding from zero
 On a stage with no applause
 I keep dancing anyway Pre-Chorus: No matter how many times I fall
 even if no one's watching 
Get up, get up, one more time Chorus: Even if the world still hasn't noticed
 I rise with a quiet fury
 Don't wait, don't stay, I won't explain 
I'm building me from the flame
 This is my REVOLT 
Starting today, as no one in particular Bridge: 
It's fine if I can't be seen
 It's fine if I'm not known 
I'm not asking, I'm not waiting
 This is mine to take Final Chorus:
 By the time the world notices 
I won't be looking back anymore
 Don't wait, don't stay, I won't explain
 I already lit the flame
 This is my REVOLT 
From a today when I was no one

Aug 4 · 10:07 pmMusic
Original recording4:12

Volverás (You'll Return)

Volverás (You'll Return)

Currently watching Narcos on Netflix - we just wrapped up Escobar's untimely death at the end of season 2 - wanted something from his wife's perspective as the inspiration for this song. A moody Colombian noir-bolero built around a single, devastating word of hope repeated until it starts to sound like denial. Sung from the perspective of a woman waiting through the night for a man swallowed by "the life" — the danger, the absence, the promises made before things turned dark. Sparse tremolo guitar and hushed, breathy vocals carry the ache, building from an intimate whisper to a resigned confession in the bridge, before dissolving into silence with the title unresolved. Set in a 70s-90s Colombian world of tropical heat and quiet dread, it's a cinematic slow-burn about loving someone you already suspect won't come home. (kbd music)

Lyrics — Spanish

[Verso 1] La casa guarda tu perfume, la silla vacía junto al balcón, cuento los pasos que no llegan, y enciendo velas sin razón. Dejaste el café sin terminar, un cigarro apagado en el cenicero, yo sigo aquí, mirando el mar, esperando el sonido de tu carro. [Coro] Volverás, me dijiste una vez, volverás cuando el sol se esconda, volverás, aunque el mundo se rompa, volverás... aunque ya no responda. [Verso 2] Sé que el camino que tú elegiste no perdona ni promete final, cada noche rezo en silencio, cada noche finjo que estás bien. Guardé tu retrato en el altar, con una foto de aquel verano, cuando el peligro aún no llegaba, cuando reíamos de la mano. [Coro] Volverás, me dijiste una vez, volverás cuando el sol se esconda, volverás, aunque el mundo se rompa, volverás... aunque ya no responda. [Puente] Y si el reloj ya no te alcanza, y si el camino se quedó sin ti, yo seguiré diciendo tu nombre, aunque el silencio me diga que no. [Coro Final] Volverás, aunque no lo diga en voz alta, volverás, en cada vela que enciendo, volverás...

English translation

[Verse 1] The house keeps your scent, the empty chair by the balcony, I count the footsteps that never arrive, and light candles for no reason. You left your coffee unfinished, a cigarette gone out in the ashtray, I'm still here, watching the sea, waiting for the sound of your car. [Chorus] You'll return, you told me once, you'll return when the sun hides, you'll return, even if the world breaks, you'll return... even if it no longer answers. [Verse 2] I know the road you chose neither forgives nor promises an end, every night I pray in silence, every night I pretend you're okay. I kept your portrait on the altar, with a photo from that summer, when danger hadn't arrived yet, when we laughed hand in hand. [Chorus] You'll return, you told me once, you'll return when the sun hides, you'll return, even if the world breaks, you'll return... even if it no longer answers. [Bridge] And if the clock no longer reaches you, and if the road was left without you, I'll keep saying your name, even if the silence tells me no. [Final Chorus] You'll return, even if I don't say it out loud, you'll return, in every candle I light, you'll return...